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Apa yang perlu saya lakukan? Sungguh, saya mencuba untuk berada dalam kelompok itu, mengenali dan memahami rencam serta karenah mereka. Namun ternyata, saya gagal. Saya tak menemui ketenangan, jauh sekali kemanisan dan keindahan.

Saya bukan mengharap yang mudah. Jauh sekali. Namun saya sendiri kurang mengerti situasi. Barangkali memang silap saya juga. Tergesa mengambil langkah ini sedang saya sedar natijah yang terpaksa saya lalui. Jelas sekali saya tidak sekuat mana merempuh gelombang yang ada.

Saya sudah terlalu rindu untuk kembali ke waktu lalu. Namun, separuh hati berbisik betapa waktu bergerak dan berubah. Sungguh, saya bukan mengkarung yang begitu mudah merubah diri mengikut persekitaran. Tegar, itulah saya. Hingga kadang-kala saya khilaf dalah kedegilan itu.

Saya mencari jalan keluar. Menangis sendiri agar Tuhan ingin membantu. Namun hakikatnya saya sendiri lemah sekali. Mujahadah yang masih terketar.

Apa yang perlu saya lakukan? Terus berpura dalam dunia yang meresahkan ini? Atau hanya menanti hadir bantuan Ilahi? Saya buntu sekali. Apa yang pasti ku ingin sekali terbang tinggi mencari laluan ke syurga firdausi. Oh, tunjukilah daku!

Busy day...

At this moment my stomach is quite hurt. Not because of the some illness. Just because i’m hungry. Working all day with no breakfast and only a couple of minute for lunch is not a rarely thing for joining a committee. Need to sacrifice and maintance all the time.

Tomorrow the new student will come in. I’m quite excited. Still do not know what is my duty tomorrow. So, i hope i can have as much as i can interaction with them. Due to my purpose, in addition to be close with the authority of the college, i wish i can be close with the juniors and try to posses them a good lead in university.

I know, its not an easy task. I hope i will do my very best and never give. Till then wish for me...the buckets of luck....=)

Durians Story

Durian’s season is happened now. My parents said it was happened in south of the peninsula. Most in the Negeri Sembilan and Johore. Did you have durians already? In my home area now there also the season. So, some of the villagers gave durians to us. The taste quite nice.

I’m not really a durians lovers. But, i just eat it when its there. I like ‘durian kampung’, but it should have the sweet taste.Otherwise my appetite will lose. Quite fussy right. Sorry its just myself.

But my younger brother really like it. Its quite funny cause he is on dieting. Refuse to eat. But when its come to durian. He eat ti non stop. Sorry dik..just to share. My mom say he never ate durian when small. Never think its change when he grown up.

Talk about the childhood, its remain me when i was small, my family and i will return hometown whenever the durian’s season is coming. When my grandparents is still there. Its such a nice memory. Although i dont really remeber but it still come across my mind the beautiful life as a children.

Stop that. Yesterday, we went to look for way to my brother college in Ampang. Take a visit too to my elder brother in Pandan Indah. Then we have a driving until reach Taman Melawati. We having early dinner or late lunch cause i cant say it tea time since we dont drink tea and i eat a lot chicken rice and sizzling mee. But not that story, just nearby of the stall we have the food the are a stall selling durian. A lot and with very reasonable price.

I’m full so i’m not eating the durians there. However my dad and brother still finished two of quite big durians. But i still have some durians porridge with sticky rice which preparing free for people by the stall owner. Very delicious. And i love it. However i dont want to fell sick due to over eating. So, it enough to have only some.

Hmm, i think just that. For those who doesnt taste the durian yet. Please try it when it still the season because the ‘durian kampung’ is so much different from the durian from Thai.

Boys Over Flowers

Boys over Flowers. F4. Quite famous a long year before. May be all of you still remeber the Taiwanese series; Meteor Garden. It really well known series. Poor me, i’m never watched it. May a couple of episodes. But it doesnt attract me.

I dont really know why i dont watched it. May be my televisions is not really working or i dont have free time when the series was broadcasted. Ignore the reason, because i always late to watch something. I’m not someone who is always follow the up to date trend. On other hand, i love the old one.

Stop that. I just try to download some story from sars fansub. Then i download this Boys over Flowers. But, it was Japanese called Hana Yori Dango. One friend told me about the similar of thet with meteor garden. Really i dont know at first. However, its really fun. I got download the full all nine episodes.

Then, my friend told me about the Boys over Flower Korean version. Then i just go to watched it. I watched it online through the website call My Soju. A website that gathers a lot of asian drama and film. Quite fun. But its long. 25 episodes. I just finish until 16. Then my holiday is end.

However, what a good thing is i just finish watching a film of Hana Yori Dango. I just love watching it. Cant deny i really love Japan’s story compare to Korean. May be with a limited time its can give much of things. And also it has some sense of humor, romance, action, drama and so on. Mix to make a nice story.

I’m trying to download the Hana Yori Dango 2. But, its not an easy one. My internet connection not really work on it. May be i just can finish it next year.