Tuesday, March 18, 2014


I try to start writing daily journal manually. Try to figure out, what kind of story to write down. What happen in life and what I felt deep inside. But, I just stuck after write for several line. Whether, I have difficulty to write using pen or it is awkward to be writing on paper. Then, I decided to choose blogging. If people say it is just personal story, let it be... how many people reading my blog anyway...

Sometime, life seem so complicated when it comes on relationship. Whether family, friends, co-workers, lovers or people that we fatefully met in our life. For me, I've lot of fun meeting new people although I learned that its not easy to start any new relationship, not to establish it into the firm one. Realizing that, I learned how fragile my relationship toward people around me that make me cry much of time to think whether I will left alone somewhere.

Whether, a daughter, a sister, a friend, a partner, an employee, a student and a lover, I don't think I can perform in any of it. I felt I have been hurting and hurt by the people I have relation with. Most of time. Thinking that, how least important I am toward their life that will make me want to run away every time. But, thinking the new relation I will be developing in new place with new person. It just scared me away.

I try to not really think about people. To make sure I am not to be hurt or hurting them. Really, life is just for a moment. And we live for the world after. Bothering myself with people is always too much. Its time to move on. End the hurt relationship and move on. Its bitter. But life needed the bitter one. Its not a sin right to forget everything and walk away? I know how expert I am to be a fugitive in much of situation. May be its quite childish and immature. But, if waiting is just wasting of time. What is wrong to leave?

Whether friend, family, work, love and whatever life in this moment. I'm thinking to let go one by one.